i dun wanna be ALONE~!!!..

Saturday, December 31, 2005
9:55 AM

i woke up in a fit of cold sweat all around me . godd id felt so real . yet, i was dreaming .

i was being handcuffed . scary . sitting in da police car . i was practically crying . my bestest fren was being handcuffed rite beside me . i entered a place i've never been tuhh before . i was facing the walls which were light green in colour and i sat on da bench . id all seemed so real . a lady who was lyk freaking pale was rite beside me on the other side of da bench . she took a glance ad me and continued with her sleep . i was practically still crying and my best fren was lyk seperated from me with a wall in between . godd it fucking felt soo real .

well, my best fren was afraid i was angry . well, let's give a name.. say my bestfren is ABC . it was pretty vague . all i knew was id felt lyk dat person was da bestest fren i had . ABC was lyk trying tuhh cover up furhh everything i did . lyk wat da hell . id was all my fault . i could feel da guilt when i was in derr . i dunno .. but da case was lyk so real and i could hear my mum crying over da fon . all i could do was drop tears from my eyes down to my cheeks and it'll be wiped by dos fucking hands of mine .

blood was injected out from me . n ABC. wart de fuck . ABC was involved juz because ABC was trying tuhh cover up for me . the policewoman was talking tuhh me . asking me how long i've been with ABC . i couldn't answer coshh i cant even see ABC's face in da dream . well, the policewoman juz said i shld treasure ABC .. cos only at dese point of tym would u noe who ur true frenz are . i slept in the farking place till about 11+ when my mum went ta fetch me home and nothing happened to me . but ABC was detained . lyk wart de fuck ? ABC didn't even do anything wrong . all i could feel was i left da place with guilt and tears rolling down dos cheeks of mine .

crap rite ? in real life, it couldn't have been this way . there's no such nice thing furhh me . in real life, i'll haf no such fren . in real life, i'd have been bashed up by my family members . but well, i'm in one piece . lol . only my heart is in two . we got back together . juz to not be together again i guess ? haishh . i dun wanna go anywhere anymore anyway . i'm locking myself . anything, i'll only reply tuhh computer messages . dun bother asking me oudd . coz i won't . i need some time ... OFF`.

`Sobing In a lil Corner..